I want to tell you a story, the story of Levi, a child who is broken, confused and searching for love and acceptance.
Yesterday, on my way home from a visit to my spiritual son’s home, I stopped on the way to get some ice cream. As I drove up to the call box, I gave my order to the voice on the other end. As I approached the window to receive my order, a very young teen boy was there. He had some piercings and was wearing a black shirt. He had a wonderfully soft face, yet I saw and heard hurt and wounds in his soul, and that is what came from his mouth.
Levi had lived in another state, I would suppose with his mother, and in a small town. I know what it is like to live in a small town, the town I grew up near was only 500 people and the critical, judgmental spirit was strong. Everyone knew everyone’s business. In fact, at that time we had a party line, so “snooping” was easy. It seems that Levi had moved to our state to live with his Dad.
I mentioned to him where I lived, which is a big metro area, and that opened a door for our conversation to begin. Perhaps it should be said that I am a grandma and maybe that is why he opened up to me, or it could be many other reasons, but once the door opened Levi’s thoughts and feelings came pouring out.
Where Levi used to live, people would condemn him for how he looked and how he dressed. He said that he used to have long hair and dyed it black. My guess is that he liked the Gothic look. People in his old town would tell him to kill himself; he said they should just get to know him and then judge, that he was a nice person.
How often do we “judge a book by its cover”? Are we not all guilty of this in one way or another? Yet, there is only one judge who is right 100% of the time and that is God, the righteous judge. Scripture says that man looks at the outside but God looks at the heart.
The sad thing about Levi’s song is that he is singing and no one appears to be listening.
He told me in response to my statement that God loves him, that he did not believe in God, because he used to go to church and pray to God and He never answered. Do I understand? Oh yes, I have felt that way in the past.
The saddest thing is that God is singing over Levi, but he can’t hear it. The Bible says that God sings over us, rejoices in us and rests in His love for us. This is recorded in Zephaniah 3:17, the old covenant, the law and the prophets, through the blood of animals. Today we have a better covenant based upon better promises and this is through the blood of Jesus, God’s Son, which was shed for us, if we will but receive it and Him for ourselves…but if you have never heard this good news, you will walk in the darkness of your soul instead of the light of God’s love for you.
God is not dead! Nor is He on vacation or asleep. He is actively pursuing people, sending messengers to those who are searching for Him, to those who don’t know that He is the only one who will satisfy the longing they have, He is the only one who accepts us as we are and still invites us to grow.
We are not robots, God gave us a will so that we can choose our path in life. His desire is that we come to know Him and love Him enough to trust Him and follow where He leads. Jesus is the Good Shepherd, this cannot be said of many under-shepherds of today. Many of them fleece the flock, taking their wool and leaving them naked and alone, making them slaves to their “ministry”. God is not like them.
Levi has an aunt who cares about him and has been sharing with him some God thoughts. This was a great encouragement to me as he told me that he has had suicidal thoughts. Mankind has an enemy and he is God’s enemy. His avowed purpose is to steal, kill and destroy; he is doing exactly that right now, seemingly without interference.
But, this I know. God is patient, kind and long-suffering. He takes no pleasure in the harm His enemy afflicts people with, however, He has given the earth to man-kind and by His own decree will not violate the will of a man. You can choose to go into the Kingdom of God through the blood of Jesus or you can choose the kingdom of darkness through the enemy of God. He will let you do what you want to do.
Recently, I have been seeing the word HOPE everywhere, perhaps because it seems so hopeless in the world of men. If we only listen to the news, the media output, it is easy to be hopeless. But God……. God has a plan and that plan has been, is and will be fulfilled. Man cannot alter that plan, but rather, everything, every choice that man makes will be used by God for the good of those who love Him, and for fulfillment of God’s plan.
It is sin, rebellion against God, that causes the misery and heartache in the world. Divorce produces broken children, most of the time. More often than not, divorce is caused by self-centeredness, and children are the ones that suffer, in one way or another. I believe that is what happened to Levi.
How many Levi’s are there? How many wounded people go on to hurt and wound others? Someone said that most of the people in prison come from broken homes. I don’t know, but I would not be surprised.
Every human being wants to be loved and accepted, whether they know it or not, God created us that way. If we can’t get it from God or other people we will find a way to get it somewhere; very often that is why people will get a pet. The unconditional love of a dog has comforted many people. Some people turn to food, alcohol, illicit sex, drugs, money, religion, cigarettes etc., for the comfort they need, we seek something to fill that void inside.
The problem is: The Holy Spirit of God is the only one that will fit in that void, everything else is a temporary fix. But, you won’t know that until you have had the experience.
Well dear reader, I encourage you to not be afraid, uncomforted and lonely, for your help is found in relationship with your creator. He loves you with an unending love.
I pray that God will help Levi find Him, finding him. God bless your day!