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Intimidation and Other Lies

Katrina was the only girl in a family of four.  Her brothers were all favored by their dad.  She longed for favor from him too.

As a little girl her mother dressed her in clothes that her grandmother made out of feed sacks.    Katrina came to hate home-made clothes and longed for store-bought clothes.

When she became an adult Katrina exerted her independence, choosing pants and baggy tops instead of dresses or a skirt and blouse.

When Katrina was 14 years old her father began to molest her.  This was not the attention that she wanted from him, but she felt trapped, unable to fight back.  She said nothing about it to anyone for over 20 years.

When I met her, she was a tightly held, reserved woman who rarely, if ever, divulged a thought about anything.

Intimidation is an interesting subject.  Because first of all, the person who has been intimidated as a child does not know that they are bound up, they are coping as best they know how to.

Secondly, if that intimidation has come as a result of sexual abuse as a child, the bondage goes very deep into the soul.  It is like a giant tree that overshadows the whole life of the person.

There is in the person a “fight back” or “push back” reaction when anyone tries to bring constructive criticism designed to help them to be free.  And this is very hard to overcome, in fact, the only thing that can set them free is the love of God.

I know that I am loved by God, but accepting the love of other people and being able to trust them was a difficult thing for me.  I was thinking this morning about some things from my own childhood.

My grandmother took me into her home when I was 8 years old and raised me until I graduated from high school at 18.  Then, my aunt got me a job at the bank that she had worked at as a young lady.  I had no self-esteem.  I longed to be loved and accepted.

I was managed by my uncle.  He became the father figure in my life.  It was a love hate relationship.  As a young man in his “twenties”, he was not prepared for parenting and especially not parenting a strong-willed child.  His method was to “crush” whatever rebellion he saw in me.

I was physically abused as a young child and there was some sexual abuse as well, but nothing in that time that would have been thought of as sexual abuse.  The result was that I grew up to be an angry person easily intimidated by anyone with authority.

Today we see sexual abuse spoken of freely in the media.  But, very little is done to help those who have been victims of it.  Rather, they are exploited to tell their story and they are paid well to do so, in some cases.  However, most of those who have been subjected to sexual abuse do not want to talk about it.

In my case, I did not tell anyone my experiences until just a few years ago and I am at this time 80 years of age.

As a young girl I was invited to stay overnight at a classmates home.  I loved to do that as I did not live in a normal home with a mother and father.  However, that visit was just part of the pain I experienced as a child.  When we got into the bed the girl placed her hand on my genitals.  It freaked me out.  Obviously, I never went there again.

There were things during my childhood that were thought to be “cute”, such as touching the genitals of a baby while changing a diaper, or an adult fondling the breast of a young teen-ager.  Or “planting a kiss” on your mouth in the presence of your friends that embarrassed you mightily.  None of these things were considered sexual abuse at that time and yet they left scars on the soul.  You were interfered with as one writer said.

In one culture the men in the family, whether fathers, brothers, uncles or grandpas sexually abuse the girls.  I was told that few of the women have not experienced sexual  abuse and physical abuse by the men in the family.

I would hazard a guess that most people have been subjected to sexual abuse in some form or other.  I suggest that most people have experienced some kind of physical abuse as well.  But the most difficult of all is the mental abuse, the intimidation and other lies that we all face as we grow up, these stay with us into adulthood.  Our character is formed through the experiences that we have.  It affects not only our mind, but also our will and our emotions.

Dr. Seuss wrote a book called, “Old Hat, New Hat”, it is the story of someone who goes into a hat store wearing an old hat.  He wants to get a new hat, but every hat he tries has something wrong with it and in the end he walks out wearing his old hat declaring that it is just right.

It is easy to get comfortable in your skin, even though you have experienced abuse.  You settle for living below your privilege.  This settling is usually across the board in your experiences.  Your attitude is really “less than”.  You settle for less than the salary you are really worth.  You settle for more stuff at a cheaper price rather than one thing of value.  You do not see that you are a person of value and worth.

Recently the Lord asked me to be a voice for those who cannot speak for themselves.  People that have been abused are so intimidated by lies and deception that they have no voice.  I would be that voice today.  If that is you, know that I care, God cares more than anyone person could.  He also has the power to set the captive free.-

It is time for the abused to realize that though the world has dealt them a bad hand, God was not in it.  God is good.  Every evil thing that we experience is because we live in a fallen world, there is an adversary, and we make bad choices.

The world needs to wake up.  People are exploited for many reasons.  There are some who are involved in stopping sex trafficking.  There are some who are now talking about white slavery and prostitution.   Others are talking about the abduction of people by the occult for the purposes of ritual sacrifice.

This area is not status quo.  It is not comfortable.  It is messy and it is dirty.  We must wake up.

There are forces and powers of the kingdom of darkness, by the Luciferians, for instance, who buy, sell and steal children for their blood to be used on their altars of ritual sacrifice.

God cares, do we?

Recently, a case of a missing child was supposedly closed.  But, it was not closed really.  A fabrication was put forth and it gained a lot of media attention and people were glad that it was solved.  I was told by the Lord that this child was taken for ritual sacrifice.  Cover-up is a tool of the kingdom of darkness.  But, God sees.  There is a judgment for it.

So friends, I trust that I have stirred the pot a bit today, perhaps even woke some of you up to the prevailing, pervasive lies and deception that surround abuse in our society.  There are so many areas where this prevails and many stories could be told.  Both the high life and the low life are affected by abuse, it has a long arm.

What I am saying through all of this is be aware.  Be compassionate with people who seem hard to get along with, they may be carrying a heavy burden from the past.  Love people to life.  If you are a believer in Jesus and you know that you have been forgiven, then forgive as you have been forgiven.

God so loved the world that He gave His Son to be the Savior of the world.  Many, but not all, will receive Him and begin the process of preparation for eternity with God forever. In the meantime, we are ambassadors for the Kingdom of God, we must represent our King to a lost and dying world.  If not us then who?

Many need a touch from God; a hand on the shoulder says a lot to someone who is struggling with self-worth.  A listening ear for someone who is in need of letting out the “stuff” that is in their soul, not judging, criticizing, or condemning them, but understanding that “there but for the grace of God go I”.

Jesus walked among us as a human man with the love of God radiating from Him.  Moved with compassion He healed the sick and diseased, set free captives.  He caused the lame to walk and the blind to see.  God longs for each of His children to do what His Son did.  That we cannot do so has been the biggest lie ever perpetrated upon humanity.

There will come a time when we will do what He did and greater things than that will we do because He went to the Father and there He lives to make intercession for us.  There will come a day when God will do what He promised He would do, He will pour out of His Spirit upon all flesh and a great harvest of souls will come into the Kingdom of God.  What a day that will be.  It will be a quick work and then there will be a separation that takes place.

God bless you today with His love and His liberty.  May you be healed and delivered from all that oppresses you.  May you know the love of God that passes all understanding.  Nothing is too hard for God, only believe.

Love, Joy

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Theory

 

There’ll be blue birds over the white cliffs of Dover

Tomorrow when the world is free.

There’ll be love and laughter

And joy ever after tomorrow,

Just you wait and see.”

Walter Kent music, lyrics by Nat Burton

The world longs for peace, will give up land for peace, will negotiate with tyrants for peace. Freedom, a word that speaks to the heart of every man. A line in the song above says, “Tomorrow when the world is free.” Volumes could be written about the longing in the heart of man to be free. Free to do what he wants to do, no one telling him what to do. This leads to the rebellion that brings forth dictators who want to be free to have their will imposed upon others. It is their freedom, not the freedom for every man, that they are after preserving. The following examples come to mind:

Napoleon Bonaparte, dictator, tyrant, “A megalomaniac who wrought greater misery than any man before the coming of Hitler.” * Exiled and dead of stomach cancer.

Adolf Hitler, dictator, aspiring world conqueror. Dead in a bunker.

Saddam Hussein, dictator. Dead by hanging.

A day is coming when a man the Bible calls Anti-Christ, will attempt take over the world and when it appears that he may succeed he will be killed. This will be the opportunity, the time that Ha-Satan has waited for, this will finally be the man that he personally can inhabit. At that point Ha Satan will take over his body and this man will appear to rise from the dead having had a mortal wound, the world will be in awe. This is my theory.

One of its heads seemed to have a mortal wound, but its mortal wound was healed, and the whole earth marveled as they followed the beast.” Revelation 13:3, 13:12 ESV

I called this piece “Theory” because the scripture above speaks of what most consider a system of governments united under a charismatic man, a man who will have the answer to world peace.

In my thinking this perfect man, the Bible calls him 666, will be the ultimate dictator; he will come to power and he will rule by peace. But, that is not the end. It is Ha-Satan who will ultimately rule and demand worship as he takes his seat on the temple mount in Jerusalem declaring that he is God.

Heaven, eons ago, Lucifer rebelled against God and thought to take over His throne. It got him kicked out, and he has been trying to find a human being he could use to take over ever since. Those I list above are only a sample of those who have yielded to him. There is a man in Venezuela at this time who is trying to take over that country, though the majority of the people don’t want it. As time goes on there will be others. Control by one human being over another or others is fostered in Hell.

Every man who has supposed that he could take over the world dies. They are mere human beings not God. Because it is written:

It is appointed unto men once to die, but after this the judgment.” Hebrews 9:27

Every dictator, every man aspiring to conquer the world, has been initially ruled by a principality of Ha-Satan and should there arise another aspiring to rule the world, he too will die. There is a time line, God alone can make changes and adjustments, it shall be followed to the letter.

God has given evil a space of time to operate in the world against Him and His creation. He has given mankind a space of time to choose whom they will serve. Time is in the hand of God. It is God alone who “changes times and seasons.”

And He changes the times and the seasons; He removes kings and raises up kings; He gives wisdom to the wise and knowledge to those who have understanding.” Daniel 2:21 NKJV

I Corinthians 10:11 “Now these things happened to them as an example: but they are written down for our instruction on whom the end of the ages has come.” ESV

Therefore, since it is true that God is in control of the time line and the final outcome, what kind of people should we be?

God is God. There is no one like Him. He rules from His throne in Heaven. His Son became the redeemer of mankind, He bought back from Ha-Satan “whosoever will” come to Him in faith; believing that He is the sent one, who paid the price with His own blood not the blood of an animal, mankind can be transferred from the kingdom of darkness, (Ha-Satan) to the Kingdom of Light.

This is Good News!

God bless you with Light. May we never yield to any control but the control of the Spirit of God, that is my prayer for you and me. Amen!

* wikipedia: “Napoleon”

An Old Tree

With quiet dignity the old olive tree stood.  Having survived the ravages of time, it was now very wide in girth, gnarly and knotty.  Several hundreds of years old, it stood in a garden called Gethsemane, its roots planted deep into the mountain soil where it lived.

If trees could talk they would tell of the times young lovers sat under their leafy boughs and spoke of the new life they soon would share.  The olive tree in Gethsemane would tell of the day a Nazarene entered the garden with His followers and of the passionate way He cried out for deliverance from what lay ahead.

Yes, if trees could talk, the tales they would tell of men, women and children, some who sought refuge beneath their shade in times of trouble, tales of others who gathered there to share food and fellowship.

In modern society, in the United States of America, age is not venerated.  That which is old is discarded.  The elderly are a bother and must be “dealt with” by the young…for this society highly prizes youth.

Everything in American society is geared to touch and reach the young, to the point that even the elderly, now called seniors, must appear young even though they are not.  When they are ready to rest in the twilight of their years, they must still be engaged in activity.  Do not the elderly desreve honor and respect for bearing the heat of the battle?  You know that I am speaking generally.

For a few years I have been noticing signs of aging in my physical body, at first it didn’t bother me, but of late I have begun to be more concerned about it.  Today I read something that brought tears.  Before I share it with you, I want you to know that I am approaching my 75th birthday.  It is incredible to me as I feel like I am 30…on the inside.

It is a shock when I look in the mirror.  In that regard, when I was a young woman my husband’s elderly Aunt shared an experience with me that she’d had the morning before, She told me that she looked into the mirror asked, “Who is that old lady looking at me?”  At that time, I laughed, now I understand.

It matters that you understand that I am not talking about the restrictions of sickness or disease, but rather what people call the natural, normal signs of aging such as wrinkles, thinning hair or lack of strength to do what you once did effortlessly.

I have gone many places in the world, even into my 60’s.  I have not lacked the physical ability to do what was required, so when I began to feel physical limitations, it was upsetting.  I began to complain.  For example, when I travel 10 hours on the train to see my children and come home from that journey, it is now taking me two days to regain my strength.  It doesn’t feel right and I don’t like it.  But, it has been the outward appearance of wrinkles on my face and thinning hair that really began to bother me.  Call me vain if you want this is how I have felt.

Somehow, these things have made me feel “less than”.  This could be because I was raised in the time when the “Star” system was in full swing in Hollywood, and the images portrayed by the movies and the lifestyle of the stars was the “norm”.  (This, of course, was a fantasy world where women were perfect in appearance and men would sweep them off their feet, marry them and they would live happily ever after.)  Now that I find my outward image changing, I have had increasingly emotional reactions to the changes.  Perhaps this has some bearing on it, though I believe there may be other reasons as well.

Faced with these changes in my physical body, knowing that time and change come to all, I have been trying to discern what is normal and what is not, and whether I should just roll with the changes or resist them; my morning devotional time brought light to the subject in the picture of an old tree.

Karen O’Connor, on page 1122 of “The Grandmother’s Bible”, by Zondervan Publishing House, states that she and her husband were walking through the Patriarch Forest in California, “stopping here and there to comment on the shape or color or texture of these amazing specimens that were the only survivors in this soil for thousands of years.”  She marveled that they were still standing in that barren place.

Karen goes on to say that these trees were not graceful like the willow or “tall and slender like a stately palm, but they were elegant in their own way.  The ravages of age and weather had given them a beauty impossible to describe.”  She continues to speak of how she had been “discounting” herself lately, “finding fault with the changes” in her body, when she suddenly had an insight that transformed her thinking.

“How is that that I could see beauty in the trees but not in myself?”, she asked.  “Why is getting older a good thing for a tree, but a bad thing for me”  Why do I look in the mirror and bemoan the wrinkles that line my face but see in the tree a quiet dignity that has nothing to do with shape or age?”

There it was.  A truth that brings light to the darkness.

Who makes the decision that something has value and something has not?  Who decides whether one person has value and another does not?

The answer is not another person, or society.  Each of us was created with “certain inalienable rights”, among which are the “right to life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness”, according to the United States Constitution.

It is the Creator who determines appearance and value.  The creator, God, placed such a high value on human beings that He put in place a plan to redeem us from the sin that came upon all men as a result of the fall into sin in Eden.

That being said, we are human and our emotional makeup is such that we are subject to the world around us and to the message that it is continually sending our way…that we don’t measure up.

Is there not a “quiet dignity”, or should there not be, in a person who has lived long upon the earth?  Should we not revere and respect those who have weathered the ravages of time?  Again, I speak generally.

The phrase, “quiet dignity” stood out and my prayer became,  “Dear Lord, help me to regard this body I am living in with acceptance, without moaning about the ravages of time or complaining about the slowing down I am experiencing.  I ask that I might live and walk in the “quiet dignity” of these old trees.  It is in Jesus name that I ask this.  Amen!

I am joyfully His,

Joy